Murdoch-Masila coming to terms with loss

By Michael Chammas
Updated September 22 2014 - 4:08pm, first published 3:49pm
"Was there something I could have done to stop him?" Ben Murdoch-Masila was the last person to see close mate Mosese Fotuaika alive before the Tigers player took his own life. Photo: Edwina Pickles
"Was there something I could have done to stop him?" Ben Murdoch-Masila was the last person to see close mate Mosese Fotuaika alive before the Tigers player took his own life. Photo: Edwina Pickles
Happy family: Murdoch-Masila with daughter Acacia-Rose - named after the place in Brisbane he and Fotuaika first met -  and partner Roxy Mura.  Photo: Fiona Morris
Happy family: Murdoch-Masila with daughter Acacia-Rose - named after the place in Brisbane he and Fotuaika first met - and partner Roxy Mura. Photo: Fiona Morris

The guilt ate away at him and the nightmares just didn't stop. He developed a counting disorder as a result of the depression that followed, and a promising rugby league career was unravelling before his eyes.